Virgo New Moon

My initial pathway to this whole spiritual trip was through the practice of yoga 🧘🏼‍♀️. I loved the detoxification through the yoga postures and even more so through my love for hot yoga classes 🔥. As I accrued my certifications as a yoga instructor and energy healer, I was hooked and wanted to become the best yogi/healer. So, I went deep into the world of Ayurveda and came across my first taste of a cleanse 💦. I felt unbelievable after doing my first Ayurvedic cleanse. The brief reprieve of not having any digestive issues felt euphoric. So much so, that I lived perpetually on a cleanse. First I removed obvious culprits like gluten, dairy and sugar. Then, as I learned certain principles of living a sattvic life as a yogi, I wanted to be the purist, so I became a vegan 🥬. 

For 10 years I ate so rigidly and applauded myself for being so disciplined. I really took it to the extreme like bringing kitchari to weddings 🤔 to many times I care to count of eating a side of asparagus at steakhouse dinners with my family 😵‍💫. I thought I was exercising power of my desires and felt elite for being able to maintain this form of living 🥴. Fast forward to my last years as a vegan, I was depressed and couldn't get out of bed. I felt so heavy and was testy to my loved ones. At that time I had created such a rigid lifestyle for myself. I had a 3 hour morning routine 😨 of meditations, mantras, kundalini practice and Ayurvedic rituals. I was eating strictly vegan and felt depleted and exhausted in my body. I had created the 'perfect' yogi lifestyle, what could be wrong 🥸?

The issue here is that my ego had clung 👹 to all the rituals and practices that once served their purpose, but now, needed to evolve.  My mind thought - "aha! I finally figured out. This is the way to live." So I death gripped on to it for dear life 😳, in fear of losing it all. But the truth with any practice is that it serves its purpose until you have to release it and allow yourself to evolve. Letting go of Yoga and Ayurveda felt beyond an ego death ☠️. It felt like an actual death for me as I had built my whole career and persona around it. I was completely unsure what was around the corner. But I had no other option, I was completely miserable 😩.

So the first day of letting go, I woke up and allowed my true desires to guide me. I learned how to really listen to my body (instead of someone else's user manual) and create a diet and lifestyle that felt right for me in our modern world. It was in this process, I began to listen to my intuition more 👁 and let it guide me. The hilarious part of this all was that I had all the wisdom and tools within me now, I just needed to make it authentic to me.

In truth, I wasn't getting away from the timeless philosophies of Yoga, Ayurveda and Reiki, I was developing a more authentic relationship with them. Because I was trusting my intuition and allowing my desires to rise to the surface, rather than be suppressed, I felt alive again. I allowed myself joy and pleasure of eating what my body wanted and practicing what my soul craved. To a sattvic yogi, it may look like I was anything but. To me, I was becoming my most liberated version yet ✌🏼.

The trippiest part of this all is that in a little while, I will have another ego death 🤭 and do the same thing over again. That is the game of being a human. We get to play with this physical world, trying on new costumes 👗 again and again. Some fit and feel like us for a while, until we get rid of them and try something else on. Sometimes, it may seem like you're putting the same costume back on, but you are completely different 🤪. Other costumes, you give away and never see them again. It is all part of the mystery and play 🙃.

I speak on cleansing and purification as we have our New Moon in Virgo this Friday. Virgo is the Goddess of purification and cleansing 💨. Although Virgos are known to be perfectionists, her true intention of cleansing is not to get to a state of rigid cleanliness. But rather, it is a tool to receive clarity ✨. It is part of the human experience to cling to our physical world of the ego. Food, clothes, technology, substances may be more obvious forms of attachment. But for those on the spiritual path, you may have noticed that even your attachment to the practices that once brought you growth, are now needing to be released.

This new moon is asking you to take an honest look at your lifestyle practices, habits, thought patterns and relationships and evaluate which ones you have clung to for too long. Where in your life has your ego inflated to create rigidity and a false sense of security 🥸? Who are you without those attachments? When you feel into those questions with sincerity, clarity will come. We are all vessels for divine healing energy to pour through with clarity available at all times ✨. Anytime there is fogginess ☁️, it is a request to deeply look at the illusion you have created for yourself and step back into your truth. This may be completely leaving old habits and practices behind or developing a more authentic relationship with them. Best part is, you get to choose your adventure 🤾🏼‍♂️, play and have fun with it.

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