How I Stepped into My Power as an Intuitive Healer + Business OwnerMar 02, 2023
It is an interesting perspective to pinpoint when you had your 'spiritual awakening'. I can certainly recall distinct times in my life where I chose to go right instead of left like leaving my job in Fashion PR and becoming a FT yoga instructor or breaking away from my business partner to bring my own business vision to life. All of these experiences dramatically changed my life for the better. However, I can also recall florescent moments in my childhood like conversations with God and my spirit guides that parallel my present day 'spiritual' experiences. Is there an ending and a beginning to your spiritual awakening?
What I can extract from each of these profound turning points in my life is that they were always guiding me to reclaim my power ⚡️ and step into my fullest potential ✨. As lovely as that sounds, I have always been terrified of operating at my fullest potential and have been told this since I was a young girl. Maybe it is from years of witnessing what power looks like in a world full of pain and suffering forced upon us from a partriarchal, colonistic and misogynistic world. It can also be from a deep fear of not being loved and accepted by others when I am at my fullest potential and allowing all parts of myself (shame, guilt, fear) to be seen. Or maybe both, ya feel me?
But what even is power? I've come to reprogram that power is not dominating over someone else with positions, money or voice 🤬. It is certainly not projecting and repeating traumas on to others 😥. And, it is most definitely not silencing others 🤫 and making them feel small and worthless 🤐. Having true, authentic power means to nurture, maintain and expand abundance in every aspect of life itself. I feel powerful when I am deeply connected to my body 🙋🏼♀️, and it is full of life force energy. When I can nourish myself financially, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I am powerful when I trust my intuition and share my authentic voice with my community.
I truly see my power as a glittery golden Queen 👸🏼 that wears a crown with her chin held high, throat fully exposed, heart wide open 💚 and feet firmly rooted. While this may sound like my journey has been a perfect, yellow brick road to Oz, it had been met with many resistances or flying monkeys 🙈, whichever you prefer.
My power is experienced in many different forms and at its foundation, it lies in my body. Most healers are initiated to take a turning point on their journey with yells from their physical, mental and emotional body. For me, digestive issues like IBS and hormonal imbalances like amenorrhea awakened me from my 'avoidant, party girl' slumber 😴 and lack of answers from western medicine, to find a deeper, truer connection with my Self. I reclaimed the power I had relinquished to external forces like western doctors and addictive substances and behaviors and remembered what I always had within me. I was left feeling inextricably connected to my mind, body and soul and earned a jewel on my crown 👸🏼.
With my crown shining bright, it became crystal clear that my next step into nurturing my power was to answer my call of becoming an intuitive healer 🔮. I had to shoo away the flying monkeys 🐵 telling me that I needed to put my Marketing degree to work at a societally acceptable corporation job and secure salary and proceeded to become a Yoga Studio Manager. Already I started to feel lighter choosing an even more unconventional and creative career path than what the rest of the world seemed to be choosing. The external cries of the patriarchy trying to shroud me from my power began to fade.
While this was a reclamation of my power at first, I realized this job was a flying monkey in disguise 🙈. Although I had flexibility in my job and it was more aligned with my soul's calling, I was working 50+ hours a week and getting paid like I was working less than 20 hours 😓. My power was dwindled to a flickering light as burnout overtook my physical, mental and emotional body. Yet, that flicker of a flame spoke to me and said, 'you were meant for more' 🤗. I deeply desired (and always had) to become an entrepreneur, leading my own community, having flexibility, financial and soul freedom. Despite my business + marketing degree and innate entrepreneurial skills from my ancestral lineage, I deeply doubted 😞 my ability to create a FT income sharing my intuitive gifts.
"Who on Earth would pay for spiritual insights and growth?!" (Btw I love laughing at these past beliefs that feel so ridiculous given my present life experiences validating the exact opposite🤪.) At the time, this belief felt sooo real. My immensely, successful, entrepreneur, italian blooded, business savy, masculine- oriented father 👨🏽💻 said "You want to be an in-tui-tive healer?". I felt as delusional as it sounded to him.
While I deeply trusted the voice of my power and did not deny that this was my path ( I truly never questioned I would be doing anything else and that's when you know its dharma 🌙), I felt terrified to start something on my own. Would people think I was an attention hog trying to claim the spotlight 🐷? Can I honestly trust myself with that much power of having my own business and sharing my unique voice 🧐? I couldn't bare the thought, so I leaped at the first opportunity of starting a business with a business partner. We were a fiery, magnetic pair and experienced such great success in the beginning.
Until, my power was dwindling again, this time, to an even dimmer flicker of light ✨. My chronic conditions came back with a vengeance with more to add on, I was making less than I had at my last job and I felt completely disconnected from my intuition. I had no idea where to go from here. Why wasn't this working? I knew this is what I was meant to be doing, but nothing seemed to be working anymore 😑😩.
On my knees beginning for answers (literally and figuratively), I was shown how this was my same pattern of giving away my power, yet again and how I had been ignoring my own needs, desires and visions. One of my visions was to start the Divine Feminine Healer's Academy, a double certification program to become an Intuitive Healer. Of course, I had been teaching this all along; however, it wanted to be birthed in a different form, receiving an official accreditation. The flying monkeys told me 🐒 'I wasn't legit enough", "You need to be teaching Ayurveda more to the book to be accredited" and "Who is going to want a program that teaches Reiki + Ayurveda, too niche!" and I listened for a while, like a year. It is wild how the voice of the inner critic can really run the show, when you suppress it and pretend like it doesn't exist. For over a year, my business suffered, my body was exhausted, and I felt powerless. It wasn't an overnight realization that eventually woke me back up. It was the little everyday practices I devoted to trusting my intuition that eventually turned the dial up on my inner voice again. With hard work and diligence, I felt my crown on my head once more and earned myself a second jewel 👸🏼.
I made a devastating decision to break away from my business partnership, launched my true vision- the Divine Feminine Healer's Academy- with success, rebuilt my own community and business from the ground up and faced literally every fear I had avoided from my initial choice to start my own business. I had reclaimed every part of my power that I had fully outsourced to my previous brand and business partner. This meant learning and facing the legalities and financial aspects of my business, asking and receiving all levels of support from loved ones (yes that had to mean financially too. I want to be 100% real with you all as entrepreneurs because this shit isn't easy), finding and sharing my authentic voice unapologetically and trusting and fulfilling my needs, desires and visions.
If there was ever a moment to call something a spiritual awakening, I would call this my cosmic explosion. I grew my IG audience to 20k, was receiving consistent clients and income from my spiritual gifts and felt more connected to my body and intuition than ever before. I had fully stepped into my power ⚡️.
I feel so grateful for the flying monkeys in the past 🐒, because without that resistance, I wouldn't have been pushed to trust my power and flaunt my flashy, golden crown 👸🏼. Aside from the beauty that exudes from my aura when I step into my Queen energy, this golden life lesson has given me a life of total fulfillment. My soul is dripping with nourishment after each angel of a client that magically appears and gifts me with the opportunity to work with them. I fully trust my intuition that speaks through my body, emotions and spirit.
Don't get me wrong, I am still on my path to nurturing my lifeforce energy and still am learning lessons daily. I've had 'failed launches', hired the wrong assistant and missed my goals more times than I can count. The difference is in my devotion to doing this as my life's work. I see each 'mistake' as ways to redirect me closer to my truth, because I know in my heart that my soul purpose is to teach women how to fully step into their power as Intuitive Queens 👸🏼 and share their authentic voice with the world.
The question is - how is your power pulsing, feeling, speaking 🎙 and visioning through you right now? Do you deeply desire to connect to your intuitive gifts and share your powerful voice with the world? Doors are open for the Divine Feminine Healer's Academy to discover your unique gifts as a multidimensional healer and start sharing your authentic expression with the world.
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